I am a ball

Sometimes I am sibeh buay song when other people appear to be so busy, yet I seems so free. Does it mean they are more important at work, or they have more life than me? Woots!!!

I have finished reading all the newspapers / online articles / smart and stupid blogs whatever. Now I am staring at the PC screen reading the Dictionary.com ---> Kill me

Alright, I particularly love this word FUTILE, let me quote it below -

fu‧tile 
–adjective
1. incapable of producing any result; ineffective;
useless; not successful: Attempting to force-feed the sick horse was futile.

2. trifling; frivolous; unimportant.

It was a futile attempt to kill myself.

I love it. Seems like everything I did was futile. Ngyak ngyak.

Yesterday I realised that I am a ball. Know why?

By the way, my birthday is coming on 29 Sep. Noone loves me, so lonely my birthday :(